Still not used to it...

Today I don't know how many times I asked my friends whether today is Thursday or not. I think I sort of cannot take in the fact that I am leaving uni soon, very soon. I am leaving tomorrow evening to stay at my cell leader's place.

My room mate's gone, majority of course mates have all gone back to their own hometown. A few of us are left. Cutegal still here with BouncyGiggle who will be joining KKC (Canselor Leadership Camp thing), CuteMonkey also still here. So the few of us have been together these few days. It has been quite laid back and I am more free to do whatever I want. Yesterday I spent practically the whole day alone in my room without meeting others. I watched Transformers 2, ate and clean my room and when the laptop feels too hot, I let it sleep while I take a break and start reading a book. It was a nice day as I spent time praying and reading books. God's still teaching me things and changing mindset. :)

Somehow, and again, I felt that going home is almost like a vacation (which it is) but to others, it means going home. I want to go back too but then it does gets bored as there aren't any activities to get engaged in. I somehow felt like the excitement here has just begun and there are things to work on continuously and now, going back seemed to cause an abrupt stop which I need to work on again when I come back.

I am learning, constantly learning about the new culture of a new church. What their concepts are, how they do things. There are so much more than what people would think or assumed. With me being growing and rooted in my church at my home town for so long, which is of another denomination and has other principles and stuff, moving to a totally new and foreign one, I don't know how to describe it also. For now it feels like I am in a blur going around here and there to church, being with people in a blur too because I don't know how to talk to them but all the while learning and observing and sometimes asking questions too and I don't know how long will this take.

Somehow, now at 2am, I don't feel like sleeping. I am still not used to it. Coming to stay in a place where I should learn to settle down and yet, the abrupt holidays kind of forces me to go home, to where I used to be, where I should be moving on other than being tied back. It is still rather confusing. And church, I still feel that there's so much more that I want to learn, to get into and now I feel that the times I get to spend in church is rather inadequate.

I do not have much close friends back home and when I am back, it is either they are having exams (the younger ones), having their own fun with their own friends and I think I have to start scouting those who are like me, back from uni and have nothing to do. So far, on my list is my STMS roomie (somehow I miss her during the first week of uni here. Hehe...), my ex-colleague and one or two school mates. There's not many.

I started to have a few plans running about in my head for the holidays. One of them is going to Auntie Anne's hospital to visit patients, talk to them and pray for them. This would be self initiated rather than going under my church. Oh, I should visit CHC Sibu xD Although it's in Chinese but it's worth visiting :) I plan to go swimming practically every day since I can't go jogging and I miss the pool and I want to diet to get healthier and burn the extra calories.

And next week? I have no idea.