Third day being home. Things were always different if either one of them weren't home. Escaped a world of negativity to perhaps a more hoped for positivity yet finding myself looking forward to my real family. I'm not complaining about this one but it can be really draining when they never did sort out their issues.

Can be tiring and frustrating. That's why, if having a boyfriend who is also like that, main issues not sorted out yet or they are not working out at sorting out their issues, I would feel like, please, no more, I have enough negative problematic people to deal with and if you cannot be my partner to work it out WITH me but instead, adds on to it, then no, I don't have the emotional means to deal with you.

A lot of things in my mind. Wasting time during holidays makes me feel restless because I know I have things to do. Although they are not assignments and what-nots, there are beneficial things to do such as constructing lesson ideas, activities that I can use in the classroom so that I will not be so stressed out during my practicum. Books to read, appointments to be made, house cleanings to be done.. A lot of things to do.

But the awkward thing now is - parents. I am not saying like I have my own life now and I make my own decisions but I am my own individual with things I have and want to do, I think I mentioned it before, I couldn't just empty my schedule and wait around for my parents to come up with things they want to do or they want us to do with them. Yes we give and take, knowing we have things we want to do or really have to do so we synchronize. Problem now is, I really do try to fit and adjust with theirs but they have no idea how to synchronize with me or both sides all do not know how to synchronize with each other so I end up rather bored and feeling my time is wasted.

All melancholies having their own schedules or ideas of what they want to do or plan to do so now mine is getting a bit messed up as my phleg wants to accommodate them, my choleric is kicking me inside for wasting time and my melancholy is screaming for a planned schedule.

But I am drawing up my list of to do's because I don't think I can take it if I waste any more time since I only have roughly a little more than four weeks here. If I don't start, soon my Aussie cousins will be back for hold and things will get even more disrupted so.

So yeah, that's pretty much what's happening in my mind now.

And I think I owe it to you guys to update you what happened in the rest of my birthday.

After that post here, I went for my dental appointment in IMU. I was there for about three hours because they constructed my dental history (their procedure) and did a thorough check up on what I was concerned with before proceeding to do my filling. In short, I got the most beautiful filling I have ever seen, I got a mini x-ray of my tooth for the first time and I was charged a mere RM5 for everything. The people were really nice which made me feel nice. After that I happily head back, dropping by The Mines to get McD, a slice of chocolate indulgence from Secret Recipe and some groceries. Then I happily ate my food with some entertainment in my room all by myself.

It wasn't a bad one anyway. :-)