Fight for Me

Max: I just want you to fight for me.. It's all I've ever wanted.

- Real Steel

The only time I ever experienced anyone fighting for me was when Uncle S was so angry when I told him of leaders of a certain church not treating and taking care of me well. Seeing him heated up at the mistreatment, I was rather touched because it was like the first time someone ever risen up wanting to fight for me. The other time was when I was much younger when there was this hateful bully at tuition, I told my dad that she hit me and was really unpleasant and he went to the tuition center to talk to the teacher and see who was that girl. But what Uncle S did was the one that made me really feel protected although he didn't went to fight them for reasons not to be disclosed but it really really made me feel that someone cares for me and is willing to fight for me.

No, my parents are not the ones who will go out and fight for me nor defend me. I had to fight my own battles, faced my consequences up front and on my own too. It sounds like, oh its good for you, life has made you strong so yeah in that way it is good. Plus it sends me running to God.

So what if I talk a bit louder? So what if I made a strong point to set boundaries to protect myself? So what if I strongly that do not tolerate disrespect and plain impoliteness?

Time and time again until today people show me that people cannot be trusted, people are imperfect, family members can be pain inflicting people and there are people outside who will treat us better than our family.

Like Max, I just want them to fight for me, even when it comes between my brother and I, if he creates nuisance and stupidity, at least be aware that it came from him and not let him shove the fault to me. They know he is the one with the bad temper and all, they want me not aggravate him and just tolerate his stupidity, bad temper, violence and mood swings while they sweep it all under the carpet and keep quiet.

I have God who fights for me, who knows my heart, sees the tears and gave me love and people who love me and will vouch and fight for me. I think that is why I will fight for people, stand up for those who are unable or have no ability to do so. I just pray that my heart stays red and warm instead of cold and hard while facing cold and hard people.

Do you have people who will fight for you? Do you have people who will vouch for you?