My Smile is Back! :D

I went to IK (Ikatan Kristian) just now with ErnJie and some others. It was quite okay although the way the speaker (the current new president) give his "sermon" was kind of annoying in a way but I somehow God spoke to me a few points during the sermon. I was listening attentively although I would look rather intimidating to him with my stern face and crossed arms. :P

I guess I will have to learn to live with people somehow. Concerning the previous post, seriously I told one of them what I felt but what she said didn't help at all. They just don't bother to change to be a little more caring in a way. She sounded rather selfish. But ANYWAY I'll see how it goes in the coming days.

I went to IK, I was still rather emo then. Before that ErnJie asked about it, I told her and I almost cried in front of her until she came. So I held back. Then at IK, I saw some familiar faces, one from home, others from Acts church. I was rather happy to see them and somehow, my smile came back and the despair went off. My CG is serving as usher today and I kind of helped giving out the bookmarks aka calender.

Somehow I felt kind of different this time going to IK although it is only the second time I went. I still remembered the first time I went. I forgot who I was with. I went there, everything was foreign and I know no one there. Now, after knowing a few persons and knowing how things in general would go and perhaps I have grown, I don't feel so foreign, so timid as I used to be.

These few days I was calculating and kind of worried about my budget because it is really, really tight. There's a stupid dinner that I was considering going which I haven't bought the ticket to because it costs a freaking RM50. I wonder if it should be as tough as what I am facing now, how a pledge should be and I was questioning what's the point of pledging. Then just now, God reminded me that this is where the true test of the pledge is - How much do I love God to sacrifice a bit for Him. So I'll continue with it and not give up.

There are other things which is sort of out of my mind now. My ankle still hurts. Somehow the bone is out of place already although that day I went to a Chinese doctor to adjust it already. The bone is still sticking out more than the other side. (Will show photo of it when I am able to upload photos during better-line-days) I went online and searched about it but I can't find the solution to it. Sigh. Now I can't walk too long, I can't jog at all, I can't jump at all which means no dancing for me. I think swimming isn't that taxing on it. Sad.

I guess that's all for now. Will share a wonderful devotional I got today in the next post! It's seriously late now. Chao!