Pain and Quitting.

Hey people. So far, lots of things happen in my absence here. The absence can be explained by the lack of internet connection in college. Sigh.

Now, sitting here in the library once again with the addition to a painful ankle and sore right leg and chest muscles, and without the cold air-con because I'm in the stuffy part of the library upstairs, in the morning because class was suddenly cancelled, I will be onlining, updating you guys and later, study.

Yes, finals is just around the corner and I am fighting for time to study. So far I started but just a little.

Lots of things happen. Yes, I'll explain.

Yesterday morning at 3 a.m, it's pre-dawn, the fire drill went off like we expected (someone accidentally saw the memo of the authorities here :P) and I blurrily woke up, grab my phone and my glasses, pull off the plug in the socket, wore my slippers and head downstairs following the stream of people heading towards the padang kawad. At ground floor going out, there was a step down, I didn't saw it because they cut the circuits and I fell and sprained my left ankle AGAIN. I thought to myself, "This time my ankle sure die."

How many years ago, four I think, I sprained that same ankle in school when I naughtily walk down the stadium without using the stairs. The ankle swell like an elephant's leg. I didn't go to school for one or two weeks because it was soooo painful and I had to hop all around on my right leg which is SOOOOOOO tiring. Then the ankle took ages to heal to the point when I can run again.

This time, it happened again. The ambulance guy rubbed some relief ointment on it and asked me to walk on it. So far quite okay. Still can walk on it but it is talking a toll on my other muscles on my body especially my arm and right leg muscles. I felt like I just got hit by a car. =.= Thank God for wonderful friends who waited for me and accompanied me all around. :)

It's still swollen but today I can walk better already. Now other muscles feel more painful than the ankle. Haha. But it's not so haha when it comes to moving around especially walking down stairs. Any advice from you Mr Dancing Physio? xD

Then the other thing. I don't know if I mentioned here that I joined the Emerge's got talent, a talent show thing for CHC's conference. I wrote my song and went for two practice and now...






I decided to quit.


Yes, I have my reasons. Lots of them actually. Firstly, finals are up. Secondly, I hardly have time and chance to practice with the limited access to a keyboard. Thirdly, I have to sing and play the keyboard myself, a one man (woman) show which is very distracting especially with the lack of practice. Fourthly, the expectations here are high, all other contestants are quite professional like other song writers have friends to play a band for them, they have their own recording thing so they can record their own back-drop-song and find a singer to sing for them (and that guy said he'll help then in the end say cannot.) Fifthly, I was told that I don't sing well especially high chords. Which is rather disheartening. Sixthly, I don't feel anyone supporting me to go. Even if they do, I no longer have to confidence. I know what will happen again. My performance will be rather pathetic and I won't enter finals. My aim was just to enter finals but now things just don't look promising. I have ideas for a performance next year. This time, cannot. So I decided to quit and just focus on my studies.

Perhaps I will be a clown next year. xD What do you think? ;P

Things can be quite stressful here. Watched the movie "Cars" on Friday I think. Forgot dy. Something just spoke to me saying, "You're still in the race and it hasn't ended yet. Keep running, there's still time, there's still hope. Don't give up. Don't let the devil dump the stress on you. God will fly with you. Just keep running."

So I have to start working even harder. Planned my timetable dy. Should have taken a photo of it and show it here. Haha. Oh wells. Hectic life.

Currently I am looking for a new mentor in CHC, still adjusting to how things are done and how things are at CHC. Not easy as everyone is busy and I do need quality time with people (I like the time in the car with PenangGuy when we will talk about things most of the time. :P). Aih, hectic life.