Desert Times

So, finals started, lots of things happened (or so it felt like it) and there are frustrations and moody moments but after struggling rather hard with all of that, yesterday it all suddenly lifted. :)

I talked to GodMother, and there couldn't be a more comfortable person to talk with since she knows me well and I can just express anything without fearing a bad response, and even if there's a negative response I trust that she would tell me nicely and help me understand. Ah, it has been a long time. And I thought we moved on and couldn't talk again. :) God, thank you for her.

So, in the end I did went to join Emerge's Got Talent. I was so nervous that I didn't start at the right key and ending up not presenting my song properly, singing all blur that no one could make up the words. But after that, knowing myself how I performed, I'll just leave it to them, to God what they want to do with my song. My song is has a message deep from my heart and if God allows it will spread, to awaken people not to emphasize the outer beauty but rather the inner one which will last forever. God will bring the impact if He wants to.

When I thought God has stopped talking and all is quiet and lonely and it feels hard to get back to Him, God proved himself faithful. I do believe that the devotionals that came to my reading is directly from him these few days as it feels like all of it directly spoke into my heart.

Things kind of feels hard for me right now. Struggling with this and that (plus the whole campus' water supply is gone now due to leakage of the main pipe that happened yesterday and today the water still has not restored), uncertainties in friendships and all, it is hard and it is a hard lesson to learn. After last night, talking to WittyOwl, I came to a realisation that I have been running and avoiding situations that gets too complicated and involving confrontations. The thing I will tend to do first is - becoming quiet. Then I will not appear in that setting or with that person more often. Some people say it is better to confront, some people say it is better to keep to yourself to keep peace. I am still looking for the timing to confront and consider the necessity of confronting. Still struggling la.

But all in all, it is a time of struggle and learning. Thank God for people around who are very supportive.

And I could go on and on but sadly I only have approximately 4 hours to my Spanish test. Buh bye.