Interview?

Yesterday I was in Kuching for an interview for the government posting. Whether it went well or not, I'll just leave it as it is. I didn't find it bad but the interviewer was just rambling on and on and seemingly wanting to ruffle a lot of feathers and also discourage interviewees to have much hope in getting the position of being a teacher in the government sector. 

I am neutral in whether I want to have it or not and I stayed calm and let her ramble on and on about things that I personally think are totally not related to teaching or education or work whatsoever. And I am here scratching my head and quite bewildered at how my friend reacted to what was being done to us.

My friend wasn't in the room the same time as me so she was asked a different set of questions but the process was largely similar. We were all critiqued about our appearance, the ridiculous demand to wear a standard blazer, shoes, hair and so on so forth. (My hair was in a bun but the bun of my style instead of those others who're in the ugly bun with a bow >< and I had a solid bun sprayed super hard because she critiqued others before on the stray strands of hair ==) 

My friend's conclusion of coming out of the room was - It was difficult but I learnt a lot from the interview. 

And I was like, what in the world did you learn from that interview?! Other than the ridiculous demands and the deliberate effort to push us down and make us feel small AND it being done by someone who isn't in the education field, what can you get out of that kind of situation?

I really do not like how the others are.. most of them. They are like, wanting the job so much they would go down on their knees and kiss their feet to beg them for it. I didn't like how my friend, out of her own nervousness, tried to make me into that standard she thinks I should be - no jewellery, no whatsoever in case they scold me whatever. And they are like, ah whatever the interviewer said is the best, the truth, the ultimate. And they say things like these after being critiqued ridiculously about ridiculous menial things like: "So sorry madam. I didn't know this before. I will go and do as you said after this. So sorry." and almost bowing down to everything she said while that interviewer gloated at all of us. 

I'm not saying I marched in, demanded a job or demanded to be treated like a princess or something. I am a person, I am an asset for not only any schools that would have me but for their company, for this country. They have no right to be oppressing us like that. 

I did not do any fake-humility-trying-to-please-milady-queen kinda stuff. I did not get mad and be stern or be sarcastic. I just answer properly, the best I could and not shrink when she started to go on and on about the menial things she deemed important and what she claims we fail to do. 

Almost everyone came out from sessions with her looking drained and discouraged. I didn't let it affect me because I know what is important and I know that I am an asset. If they do not want me, I can find other means of being a teacher. My current job isn't bad anyway. She talked as if being a teacher in government schools are the only "teacher" job in the planet and she kept repeating that they do not have openings. I know of a lot of schools needing teachers especially English teachers and I know there are other ways and places to be a teacher. 

So, whatever. I really don't like how they worship them == and I really don't like how they want to make us worship them.