Birthday post #1 of 2013

Birthdays are overrated. No harm of celebrating but when it has created this expectation of being celebrated there seems to be more harm than good especially when the person has no loved ones to show their love, appreciation to the birthday person and even worse is, those people who are deemed normal having families and friends just don't get celebrated and they would feel like the homeless orphan on the street who doesn't get celebrated much less remembered on their birthday. 

So what if I cried on my birthday? I cried on my previous few birthdays. 

Today was fine until I didn't get to send my two boxes of books via mail and the lady at the post office was seriously not nice and NOT helpful. My bro and my mom, as usual make things more confusing and FRUSTRATING by saying all those gibberish and blablablabla like

FB chat:
why cannot send?

cos the package not packed properly

pos laju send tomorrow reach sibu dy

you want me to spend RM150 for two boxes of books to be sent?

noooooo

then mom called:

where are u?

In my room.

the books just send la

what send la cannot send cos it is RM150 and i come back to my room already

just send la never mind RM150

I AM BACK IN MY ROOM ALREADY. I PAID MY FRIEND TO SEND ME TO THE POST OFFICE TO SEND NOW COME BACK ALREADY CANNOT SEND ALREADY VERY HEAVY FRIDAY GO SEND AGAIN

Friday go send la nevermind RM150

What go send RM 150? I brought it back because it cannot be sent so i have to repack and send again on Friday for the cheap one!

Never mind la the RM150

Stupid ah bring back already to pack for the cheap one and now u say bring back again on Friday to send for the expensive one. Bring back all the way here BY CAR just to repack to send for the cheap one now u say just send for the expensive one

Oh you go there by car. Nevermind friday ask friend send again on friday. Why you didn't call me when u are at the postoffice just now? I'd ask u to just send.

=.=

It's like I CAN MAKE DECISIONS AND DECISIONS ARE MADE AND EVERYTHING IS SETTLED AND YOU PEOPLE SAY THIS AND THAT AND THIS AND THAT. 

DAHLAH ROOMMATE YANG MOODY NI LATELY HINT "THINK ON YOUR OWN FEET" PADAHAL MAKSUD DIA IALAH STAND ON YOUR OWN FEET. TAK MAHU TOLONG ATAU BUAT APE APE DGN SAYE. SEKARAN NIH TAKUT DIA BIARKAN SAYA MASA KITA KAT MELAKA. GILA STRESS NI. DAH LAH SEKOLAH YG SAME, TINGGAL PUN SAME. KENA CONTACT LECTURER THRU DIA. 

STUPID RIGHT. 

Who says I can't cry on my birthday or be angry on my birthday or scold people on my birthday? I won't go overboard to literally go bash people up whether physically or verbally but a little vent from the frustration of my current situation won't hurt. It is not as if I will jinx or whatever-stupid-whatnot my birthday if I do. 

Loads of crap around here. Okay stop crying to prevent puffy eyes. Got tooth appointment in IMU and heading out soon.

Perhaps birthdays should be like what the hobbits do. Birthday persons appreciate the people that they are thankful for and to bless others instead of expecting to be celebrated and blessed. Of course not to reject celebrations and what not. But the perspective of giving is much better than expecting to be given. It will stop a lot of pity parties on people's birthday. 

I shall date Him instead for today :)