About Theater Blog

I have another blog. Which can only be read by me theater lecturer. She asked each of us to blog in it throughout the whole process of our course. I was excited. I WAS excited. Emphasis enough?

Excitement turned into disappointment, doubt and perhaps, depression. Not really that bad but... I can't find the word to describe it.

Anyways, I put the reader tracker on it and apparently she does not visit it. I seriously doubt if she cared at all. Her methods are unconventional but it doesn't explain nor excuse her for her irresponsibility and her lack of seriousness about certain things.

Yeah, now I don't like her. She blames us for being last minute when we have sent her the letters so much earlier on for her to chop and sign to be sent on to do their work but she never did it and then she suddenly decides to go for a holiday when we seriously needed her stupid signature and I had to be the one despised by everyone in my committee and then having to do the papers still, have to go around begging for other lecturers or just anyone who would sign on behalf of her and then get scolded by her through a text before she went MIA again and I get so desperate that I forged her signature in some forms but I still need her staff number which she don't bother to give in reply to my text because she is on holiday and she is stupidly mad at whatever hell that is going on.

So, what's the point of blogging in her blog? Unless I blast her with the long sentence above of what she never did and never being really helpful at all. Everyone in the faculty knows her behavior and sighs in pity at me having to deal with her and whatever that I need to do for her and for my course. And I have to suck all up for the sake of my grade for this course and for future courses with her.

If the blog is meant to be a vent, for me if she does not bother reading and she does not care at all, there is no point for me to vent in there. Quite fed up with the whole thing. Coming Friday and Saturday is the final performance. One more week of busyness and a postmortem next week before all these stupidity of theater finally ends.

And I have a whole chunk of assignments to finish tonight no matter what happens. Couldn't do it yesterday because my brain turned off. This has been the pattern this semester. I do worry about the drop of efforts in my work and studies due to the heavy workload and stress. ><