Today 2 things happened.

I remember the first and only time I was lovingly kissed by a person in my past 10 years of my life - Auntie Michele. And it made me realized how much I am still looking for love.

I went for dinner, meeting up with a friend from Semenanjung who came to visit. The other friend is an old friend from Sibu. Then suddenly she said that there will be some other people who will be coming and sort of joining and those people are her gang of friends which I never mixed with. When they are there, they don't talk to me except for the guy who came first whom I never really knew. The girls who came were that gang from GB last time who weren't very nice. And I realized in my heart that there are still unsettled things in my heart about things in my past.

I believe God is revealing it all for me to sort out. There was a word from Him that there are unsettled things from my past that I need to settle. I thought it's all clean now but now I know where to look.

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I haven't met you for exactly a week now.
I let go to see if you'd come back.
I let go because I had to.
But it doesn't mean that I don't care.
I don't want to be the one keep running after you
in the end to find you not running too.
Like the other friend who never made any effort
because all these while it was me who made all the effort.
I don't want it to die.
I want to see if you want it to die.
Cos sorry to say I can't invest in one that doesn't have a return
I need to see your heart too;
while I tune my heart to the right frequency.