Worry + Stress = :(

Now I remember my reason for not getting into businesses. Especially on selling things that I make. AHH. Now I wonder if I should continue with my cupcake business.

I just finished my 2nd try of cupcake making. With the previous feedback in mind, I sought to make it better. I added an extra egg and 50g more butter and reduced a few tablespoons of cocoa powder in the hope of a less bitter, better textured cake. So I baked.

I started to worry me a little because the batter didn't looked as red as before. But when it came out baked, the colour is still okay, just a little less red compared to the previous bake. So it's still fine. Then comes the texture. When I pressed the cupcake lightly on the top, I felt much softer compared to the one before. I was happy. Then I taste it, it was soft. BUT I remembered the previous bake, the texture is not as fluffy as this one but I remembered that I was really happy because it is kind of soft but rich. This time it is really soft but it didn't give that kind of richness.

:( And now I kept worrying about how they will find this batch. I hate this feeling. And I hate all the questions that comes into my mind - What if it doesn't sell? What if they don't like the texture? Each person prefers different kinds of textures. So what to do to? I've already planned on having different kinds of cupcakes with different price. What if I don't get any orders at all?

Perhaps I should change my perspective a bit. Loosen up myself a bit. This is getting too stressing that it is no longer fun to do it. *burst out in tears inside*