Rojak Update!

A song that I'm currently hooked on. Music, music. Yes, somehow this song connects so it got hooked.

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gonna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

If only words can convey what I really feel now. Thoroughly mixed, added with a pinch of emptiness and unwell body. Been having a sort of headache since Grammar class just now.

Gotta buck up. Set my life in order, set my spiritual life really running properly. Things are not hanging up so well now. Kinda messy like the clutter on my desk and the pile between my bed and desk. Don't know. Cluttered. Yes.

I don't know why the juniors are so free and they don't have much to prepare for while I have readings, lots of them, research and assignments and presentations every week. That's why I am skeptical about joining ministry in church. I can break down if there's too much that I can handle. I don't know. Maybe now my mind is rather cluttered.

Must start with consistent prayer every night. Step by step. Now step 1 - pray before sleep. Been praying on and off when waking up. Need to do it more consistently. Other stuff, perhaps will come and go like blessing my coursemates and all that. As for praying to clear the atmosphere, I think I have grown the habit of praying it whenever I hear those prayers being blasted out. So, yeah. Now to buck up on the personal level, need to build myself up and tune myself better to God.

It has been a long time since we had prayer meeting oh.

Today experienced lots. Sour puss, nice friends, nice people who are worth being with who are quiet, really the diam diam ubi people. At least people who are more understanding and still accepts me despite knowing and hearing news of those people who hate me to bits. God bless them. My heart still aches. But despite the ache, still need to move on, still need to shine.

God please heal this heart of mine and help me build this armour of faith.

Btw, today the sourpuss is really sour. For the first time after a very long time, I want to have a gigantic palm to slap her face, slap that utterly overwhelmingly snobbish look on her face. Or perhaps if ever I can find the biggest humble pie in the world, I'll get one and smack it in her face. Super sien ah. People present and she sit there looking like a total humbug with that super smug look on her face as if she knows everything while she doesn't.

Okies time to plan out and start serious work!