Bitter gourd.

I'm kinda sad the redness in my hair is fading I think. So much for my RM32.00+ :\

I was kinda bitter today. I think I am becoming more choleric in terms of work time. I'm fine with people having fun while doing work but if the work is not progressing and the "having fun and fooling around" interrupts the work flow, I do not like it. Thank God I had cousins who can have fun working fast and a bro who can work with me and we get to finish fast wrapping presents this afternoon instead of playing around all the time and wasting time. THAT is when I can't stand phlegmatics and sanguines. Phlegmatics then are slow while sanguines kept having fun and have more fun than work. I do not like it. I think the other reason was because I was tired and seriously hungry and those people are still slow and fooling about.

Other than that, I think the bitterness came about in the absence of the Spirit. Honestly, I have been taking a long break from spending time with God during this hols. With cousins always tailing me, sometimes it gets hard to get time alone especially now with people all over my house and a grandma who sleeps in my room just because the relatives are here. But I find my heart yearning, thirsting for food. Prayed for a while then got interrupted. Then when I went to Parkson, after shopping and walking at the town square, I was seriously attracted to the sermon given by Pastor Hii at the stage. They are having some events there these few nights. My heart just went to the sermon but sadly I can't stay because I am heading my group of relatives, all whom are not interested at all. I wonder how many of them are serious Christians. The rest are just baby Christians who aren't attracted at all I think. Not sure how to describe them. I want to go to town square again tomorrow night instead of my own church Cantata. Cantata will be just another service but the sermon there may touch lives forever. I am even tempted to find out when's SIB's Christmas service is and go there. I was wanting to visit. Now is too late cos I'm leaving for KL on Sunday afternoon.

I guess I'll update until here. Perhaps I'll have more to say in the coming days. I wish I had more money to change and increase my wardrobe :\