Jesus prayed "... so that they may know that You love them just as you loved me..." From there we can see that God loves us just as much as He loves Jesus. Imagine that. And there's another part that says that "if we are any cent less than what Jesus is worth, God would not have given Jesus to die for us." Imagine that!
Then when I was doing the study where the question asked how that statement will change my life, as I started writing and words come flowing, the reality of the worth of my life just dawned on me. I wrote:
My value is so much more than what the world perceives. My life actually matters to God. My body, my thoughts, my feelings, my heart all matters to God. That means, my life is more than mine. It also belongs to God. Because it affects God (in a way cos He cares mah. He will feel sad and so on if I do some stuff). He cares. That means I should live for Him because it matters to Him. I should live to please Him, according to how He things of me not according to the world. My life is not mine anymore. Plus, He sent His Only Son to die on the cross for me. That means my life is totally not mine anymore.And that seemed to be a slight opener to the answers I want to get. Then I started talking to Uncle Sam again asking him. What he told me was very clear and directly answered my questions/wonderings.
I have been desiring for deeeeeeeeeeeeep intimacy with God (which is not bad) but then I tend to forget God ( which is very bad). Then I want this deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep intimacy with God. But since the start I've got the hint from Aunt Mich from Unc Sm that I'm wanting too much at too short a time. And FINALLY I got the answer in simpler terms which helped me fully understand rest in the peace :D
Ones pursue of things could result in pursuing what God has never designed for us in the first place. So the answer is "Seek Him first in His righteousness and all these shall be added unto you"And the conclusion statement I got in my head is... as the title of this post is : "Everything is for Him, from Him and done with Him."
Seek to know Him & to know His purpose for your life.........seek to do His will........seek Him in His nature.......seek Him in His character........ Seek Him first in everything you do...
Oooh... then today the test for it came xD I already have 4 periods of my regular classes for Thursdays with the tutorial class too and they came to me with 2 sit-in's which means I only have one period free. This means that I have a 98% full day. Normally we have around 3 to 4 periods free and having 3 periods free is considered the least free time already. In conclusion, I had a really, almost totally, full day today. (I work from 6.50 am until 3.30 pm)
But then, having my thoughts settled and now living by putting God first in everything, throughout the day I never felt tired at all and I was smiling throughout the day :D Even my collegue was saying "She has been into classes whole day, even during recess she had to go somewhere, running here and there and now she is still smiley and happy..." And that was awesome! I was tempted to complain the first second I got the sit-in paper but then I remembered and curbed my tongue and thank God for whatever He gave :) and continue on the day with a joyful attitude ^^
Other than that, I change the way I take the classes. I did not demand much because I am teaching Arts and the students don't give much care about it and are not willing to do it so I wasn't really strict on them about that. My only request will be that they are not toooo noisy in class. The other stuff... about planning for some classes like the KP classes... I still need lots of wisdom into how to plan and so on. Sigh.
Today I finally understood : The Joy of the Lord is my Strength! :D
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