Dare to fail

I was seeking a time of worship when I came across this video.And the thing that come to mind as I listen and watch the testimony was "Why are you afraid of failing? Why are you afraid of falling"

I came back from camp empowered and anointed and freed from my previous bondages and filled with the Holy Spirit and the spirit of joy. I am keen on keeping that fire burning. And when others come pouring cold water on me, my fire did not quench. I am keen on maintaining my freedom, to keep my back door shut from letting the devil have chances of putting strongholds in my life. And I did. Until one night when something happened which hit me really hard.

I failed. I blew up at my mom and walked off like I used to because I can't stand the pressure that she is implying upon me. When I went to my room I'm crying like mad. I knew I did wrong. I dishonoured her. After calling up Auntie Michele and so on I went and apologised and things and stuff (she didn't take it easily) and I an thrown into a pool of confusion and down-ness for two or three days. Even self condemnation came in. The day my head cleared and I came back with the Spirit of Joy was the day I typed the post about LOVE.

Well, the thing I want to talk about now is about failing. I was afraid of failing. Part of it is the fact that I learnt the nature of the Holy Spirit, that it comes in with quite a commotion but when he leaves, he leaves quietly whereas foul spirits come in quietly and when forced to leave, the create a big commotion. I fear that I will loose the Holy Spirit. I fear that I will fall and never come back to the closeness I loved with God. I fear that I will never be as close to God as I wanted, as I longed so much to. But during this week and after the incident before, I learnt that it is okay to fail. We are humans anyway and we can only live by the grace of God. Even great people in the bible also failed. David, the one I admired most, is called "the man after God's own heart". He is not called "the one who walked in purity and perfection". And after watching the testimony above, it confirmed and helped me understood even more. It is okay to fail, it is okay to fall. God will help us to overcome, God will bring us back again.

I hae been scouting the bible and promises just spring up to me, giving assurance that God will not let us go no matter what happen.

I will bless the Lord who has given me counsel; my heart also instructs me in the night seasons. I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; my flesh also will rest in hope. For You will not leave my soul in Sheol, nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption. You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forever more. -Psalm 16:7-11

Let your conduct be without covetousness. and be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." - Hebrews 13:5 (NKJV)

There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. - Romans 8:1

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
As it is written:
"For Your sake we are killed all day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter."
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. - Romans 8:35-39

And also, I watched a sermon where I got this wonderful verse which says:

The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me, because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor. He has sent Me to heal the broken hearted, to preach deliverance to the captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to preach the acceptable year of the Lord. - Luke 4:18,19

These versed confirmed what happened in camp. :D It's totally awesome! Haha...

Well, the video above talks about what happened in New Life Worship Church where the lead pastor did something really, really bad and is gone from the church. After the new lead pastor is appointed, shootings happened in the church. Imagine what they have to go through. And they talked about the song they wrote in the midst of it - Overcome. And the day they sang the song, God's presence was there, affirming that He will help them overcome all that. The whole congregation which is so awesomely huge, worshipped God thoroughly. The worship team felt the presence so much, everyone is so touched. The words I used to describe could hardly describe the fullness of it.

I started to think, why are so many adults fearing so many things that they dare not take risks OR dare not do the things they should? I'm talking about the church context now. "Charismatics" service is taken out because of the fear of manifestations of foul spirits and the fear that things will go wrong due to their past experience of having pastors making bad mistakes, leaving those scars. This stopped the free flow of the filling of the Holy Spirit and thus the stopping of the full power of the Holy Spirit. But thank God that He is reviving all, bringing it all back.

Man, I thank God so much for the chance to be fully filled/empowered by the Holy Spirit.

Do you know that God sent storms of Holy Spirit to earth now? And there are more visions of the Holy Spirit sent to our own Wesley Church! So now it's the matter of the opened hearts of the people...

God is the big boss. God is in control of everything. If he is not worried about the outcome of something, why should we? God can turn things around. God always brings the good out of every situation. And a lot of times, when we fall down to the pit, that's where we gather the most fertilizer. And when we are taken up again, we shoot up in our growth. We rise to higher ground, to a higher level after every fall. Failure is the mother of all success. And it's so true.

Why afraid to fail? Why afraid to fall? God is in control. Even when you feel that everything is out of control ;)