Disappointment and Mistrust.

I love the few friends that I have, that I can hang out with and do things together. Yes, I do get rather frustrated at some of them sometimes. But soon I'd forgive them anyway and enjoy their company. But why is it always that when it comes to this point of trust and dependency that I see signs that make me shrivel back and become insecure about the friendship? It makes me wonder if I should be so dependent on them for the joy of the company, support and fellowship and the elimination of loneliness.

Besides that, on the same issue came the slap when that other gang that I don't trust, that I don't hang out with, they have some sort of lunch together but of course my "gang" is not invited. The slap came because on the surface they are nice and all that, only to ask for assignment or notes or whatever help they can't get elsewhere but in their rooms, in their own times, they will curse us and say the horriblest things about us.

Well, I haven't had much of an upbeat day today. God bless the rest of this week with joy and peace and tremendous favor in Jesus' name. Amen.