There's this busybody who is always so insecure that whatever responsibilities, positions and ANYTHING that will shed some glory to her, she will just take it even it was on someone else's platter. I am the class representative for that subject. She is nothing. No position, NOTHING. If she wants to help, fine, but TELL ME at least so that I know what is going on because it is MY responsibility and she pulls it out of my platter and if people question, they will question me and everyone will say that I didn't do my job. This is the highlight of the frustration of today.
Then there's DollFace. Her whining and showing off and her over-comfortable-ness with me is driving me up the wall. When I am back in my room, I expect to have my own peace, my own privacy and my own me-time. But she will never let me have that. She basically stomps all over me and this is the initial major thing that has put me on edge now. One more whine from one other person will trigger a near outburst from me.
Then there's SlumberFace. She's a good friend which I hung out most of the time. But lately she is starting to pull away and she has lots of excuses and attitude and whatever that is just going too far. She miss out on assignment meeting time, she miss out on practice time, she is starting to pull away and not get involved. We are friends but she just pulls away and just argh. And as for work, I don't know if we should confront her, approach her of her issues. She doesn't even answer her phone and she is so stubborn not to take care of herself. So she always have excuses like not feeling well and everything but she doesn't want to take medications and stuff, as if stubborn to keep herself sick. And the other thing that concerns me is that, that day we were sort of discussing about something and she blurted out, "Yea lah you are always right." It was a slap to my face. And I don't know how to deal with it.
All this while it's like, it's the way I am wired. I don't simply interpret instructions. As much as I can, I want to get the correct one and if I am correct, of course I stick to it. But if I am not correct, they could have pointed it out and help me understand and I will agree with them. I will question until I understand, until I see it. But if not I will not budge. I don't know if this is right. And the other thing I noticed is, I tend to be on the edge of one extreme. Yes is yes and no is no. Yes, I understand sometimes there's something in between but for things that in the strictly yes and strictly no, I will stick to it like steel. It's like, if I commit to a job I will do it well. If not, I will not do it well. If I believe in God and follow Him, I will follow Him wholeheartedly in the way that I will try as much as I can to follow whatever God teaches and whatever that God says is bad, then it is bad. If not, I won't. I do notice that I have this extreme thing going on and I don't know if it is a good thing. Some people say that it is best to have balance. But again, I believe that some things cannot have compromise and some "balance" I see it as compromise.
I don't know. Can anyone clarify?
And more and more assignments pile up each day. A horrible lecturer and another lecturer that makes us feel like idiots every lesson. Why?
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