The Rest of Them

As I am writing this, my heart grieves, my heart is dissatisfied on certain things but most of all, it grieves.

Went to church today, had a wonderful time with really, really beloved friends. This is the photo of the ones who went for lunch.

Perhaps the last photo with PenangGuy (the tallest one in the center).

These two are the closest ones in CG. Very sad to leave them.

I know they will miss me very much.

And this one the dearest one of all. When she came into the van, the first person she will look for is me. When we go somewhere when we are together in CG, the first person she will look to go with is me. We talked about almost everything, shared our crushes and our views of cute guys in CG and talked about our hometown people. We are the Sarawakians of the group.

And this is the first ever cupcakes I've ever bought and tasted.

Loving the packaging. I need to buy 2 in order to have it in the box. If I buy 1 they will give me on a serviette ><

Loving both of it but most of all the orange one! Because it is my favourite poppy seed cake but with tangy icing! :D And loving the bronzy toppings! Pretty!!! And they're not too sweet, nor too creamy. Oh no! Was too happy eating to take pictures of it being cut half! Never mind! Might get one again next time I'm out with a friend who loves it! Rather costly though. 1 for RM4.90. 2 for RM9.80.

My parents will faint when they see the price. And my mum will make an abundance of cupcakes for me when I am back. LOL. Okies back to the topic.

Today, fellow Sarawakian voiced out something similar to what I am feeling and what I have feared last time when out van system is out. Previously we go to church and CG being fetched by other cell members. It took their effort and their heart to do that. Plus by doing that, I realized that we spend more time together and it actually brought us closer together, in certain groups. But now that we started to have this van thing because there were too many of us, we are starting to become more detached from that other group who doesn't go by van, the local people and the older members of the CG. She felt the same way.

Then the other thing I noticed again, that "core group", the locals who have the convenience of their car, will have outings where they get to spend more time together. Without us. I can understand that some of you guys do spend outside time together and all that. Of course we should be giving the freedom and not demand that whatever activity that you guys personally have should not be monitored by us or whatsoever. But it does indicate some thing you know.

When was the last time we all went out together other than the normal after church lunch?

How many times the rest of you went out together other than the normal after church, after CG eat out?

Just easily compare that two and you can see the vast difference.

One basic truth = people hang out more with those who they consider friends or better friends.

So combine this with the number above. Get the message?

I am fine, I am leaving. When I leave, to avoid the pain and disappointment of it all, I can just unfollow your tweets and remove all your news feeds from my feed wall so that I don't have to see or know about anything that you do. But what about the ones I've left behind who is in the mob of being treated as just... members and never friends? We treat you as family. Of course there are certain expectations. But that is what family do. Unless you don't treat us as family.

You can argue, but look at it from our point of view for once. Do you want to wait until the day they utter the words "I am leaving CHC" then only you will sit down and listen properly and look at things from our point of view? Now I even wonder if PenangGuy ever take the things I tell him seriously. So, easy. I am leaving, you brush me off your sleeve and move on. But what happens to the rest of them?