Entertainment Indulgence

So I realized today (I think I did realized it earlier on) that whenever I come back, I indulge in entertainment be it movies, series or games at least until 1am because I feel that my time is being snatched away and I don't have time for myself and that my holidays are being cheated away from me. And I don't like to talk about school or students except when I am venting and I don't like people telling me, "Haiya, it is so easy la. Just like that la." and when I say that, "You don't know how it really is in the classroom." they say, "You always say like that. It's just your excuse." I HATE IT. Especially people who NEVER stood in front of a whole class of students and try to keep them in their seats, much more to attempt to educate them.

I've come to a point where I will sit on the side of those teachers who got sued for spanking students. I will sit next to them with an understanding look in my eyes and tell them, "I know. I was tempted to do that also a lot of times."

Don't blame me. A lot of crappy whatever philosophies got sucked into the culture and the devil has been working hard to corrupt families. First, the business gets cacated. So the people get poorer. Then to survive, parents have to sacrifice to work hard to rear their families. So they don't see their children, don't spend time with them, don't take into their matters. So families get cacated. Then when families get cacated, gangsterism was seeped into the society by the devil. Then the people embraced it because they were so hungry for love, protection and a sense of belonging which they never get from their families. So children start to behave like gangsters.

I am currently teaching form 1's and little little things, they fight. They ask their parents come. They make secret calls to homes threatening to call the police or whatever gangsters to beat them up. Little little things, they get mad at teachers, they scratch their teachers cars. Yes, we are talking about transition to form 2's.

So they somehow survived school and got married and have kids. They don't have good role models so they became just like their parents. Then they give birth and then the children become just like them. Thus the horrible cycle. The thing is, they are getting worse and worse because the devil is working harder. I see students who do not want to study. I see students who just want to play. I see students who just want to disturb people. I see students who want to do just nothing if they got to not study.

If they are not interested in studying, I can't blame them totally. I, myself hate that school system. I've always thought someday I will open up a school, a new type of school. A school that caters to all kinds of personalities and interests, help them to build up their potential while make them marketable. Instead of stuffing into their brains stupid sejarah Malaysia and P. Moral, Pendidikan Sivik and Kemahiran Hidup, I will bring in a more wholesome syllabus of history, some other kind of program that feeds the spiritual side of children and also proper living skills in English rather than what kinda crappy name they could come up with for all the terms in Malay. I'm not undermining Malay. I am fine about using the Malay language in History. But for other stuff, the terms and so on, I find it rather crappy. Firstly because it's already so crappy to learn all those weird terms, secondly they don't have much proper books in Malay because they are all TRANSLATED from English, thirdly on this side of the country, face it, there's less Malays around which makes Malay almost like a foreign language to them. And they are teaching it as a first language. Which is total crap.

Ok I have diverged far. So the kids come from cacated families and cacated culture into the schools. So they are rather cacated. And what are schools for? To educate them most specifically - academically. I believe families are first and foremostly where the other forms of education should come from namely spiritual education and whatever education you call it where children learn proper manners and parents discipline them. But parents leave that all to the school and teachers have to deal with all the monkeys and so on and try to make them into angels while driving teachers nuts. Then when teachers fail to do so, the parents blame the teachers when it was originally their responsibility to teach their kids all that.

And again it's 2.02 am now. Still watching a movie on PPS. =.=